haven't written an entry in years, some horoscope suggested that i should pick up the blogging oh dear, where do i start? i've been eating so much since yesterday night (and yes, those who have been out of my life for quite some time, eating has become my new obsession) it all started after the kid told me about it.
i dont know what it is i just can't seem to relax, i'm so bothered by it, by her, by all the subtleness, by all the wondering, by all the yearning what is it exactly that i expect from her? i dont know what it is, why can't i control these outbursts, why can't i be grateful for the relationship i have with her
fuck, don't tell me
because i still believe that i secretly know i do
but i'm denying it oh fuck, FUCK. i just want to break things
but all i fucking do is breathe heavily and eat obviously i'm upset, but what i am supposed to say to you? because everytime i try,
your image engrosed in my mind
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